So this is a good way to procrastinate right?

There’s lots of things I *should* be doing right now, but I’m severely lacking in motivation. I even took the time to make a list of all the things I’m not doing. At least I’m being lazy in an organised fashion.

I hate being so affected by the weather. I had that SAD actually exists, although I suppose it is good that it’s a recognised condition. Yesterday I had to turn the lights on in the lounge as soon as I got up in order to actually be able to see anything, and my mood was just as bleak and washed out as the weather.

I’ve bought a couple of things to make for people for Christmas, so maybe I’ll get a start on that today if nothing else. It all needs to be done I suppose. On that note, I took my first ever trip to Hobbycraft at the weekend. Oh my God, that store is amazing. I could spend so much money in there if I had any. 

The boy is back at work this week, but only until tomorrow, then he has pretty much the whole of December off, save for 4 days. I wish I could take any time off - I don’t even get evening at the moment! I miss having a normal job just due to this. However, he’s apparently pretty much straight on overtime as soon as January rolls around - brilliant. Mind you, I might be sick of him by then :-p

I finished watching Greek all the way through again yesterday - the last episode always manages to get to me. Really want them to do some kind of reunion episode!

It got me thinking about uni though, and how much I miss it. Not the actual being at uni, partying, having no money (although that hasn’t actually changed) part of it - but actually doing something that I was interested in. Learning about something and not being completely bored by it. I was discussing what I did my English dissertation on the other day with a friend and I still got majorly excited about the whole thing. It makes me sad that I don’t have that any more. Everything just seems like effort - particularly when clients are involved as no one ever knows what they want, but are so easy to criticise when your best guess is not exactly right.

I think the fact that people seems to be progressing around me is probably making this worse. With one friend getting a new job, one moving away on an awesome promotion and one being exactly where she wants to be - it just makes my self-reflection even more harsh. Even though I’m stupidly happy for them all, they all really deserve good things!

It depresses me the more I read about society and how it’s all going to hell. What with the budget announcements yesterday as well, and some very unpopular decisions. I know that the public services are striking today. I sort of support them - I mean I kind of have to, my mother is one of them - but I don’t see it actually helping. Maybe I’m just too much of a pessimist, but it seems this government have made up their minds about how they’re going to run the country into the ground (ie. in a very conservative, rich stay rich kind of way) and I don’t think striking will help - it didn’t help the students. If something does come out of it, then that’s fantastic, and people are actually being listened to, but if not then (particularly within education) they are kind of damaging themselves more, as days with no teaching means less time to get students to course-passing levels. Let’s just hope it works.

Posted on November 30th at 10:04 AM
Tagged as: motivation's such an aggrevation. crafty. jobs. left behind. strike!. bloody Tories.

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