So this is a good way to procrastinate right?
There’s lots of things I *should* be doing right now, but I’m severely lacking in motivation. I even took the time to make a list of all the things I’m not doing. At least I’m being lazy in an organised fashion.
I hate being so affected by the weather. I had that SAD actually exists, although I suppose it is good that it’s a recognised condition. Yesterday I had to turn the lights on in the lounge as soon as I got up in order to actually be able to see anything, and my mood was just as bleak and washed out as the weather.
I’ve bought a couple of things to make for people for Christmas, so maybe I’ll get a start on that today if nothing else. It all needs to be done I suppose. On that note, I took my first ever trip to Hobbycraft at the weekend. Oh my God, that store is amazing. I could spend so much money in there if I had any.
The boy is back at work this week, but only until tomorrow, then he has pretty much the whole of December off, save for 4 days. I wish I could take any time off - I don’t even get evening at the moment! I miss having a normal job just due to this. However, he’s apparently pretty much straight on overtime as soon as January rolls around - brilliant. Mind you, I might be sick of him by then :-p
I finished watching Greek all the way through again yesterday - the last episode always manages to get to me. Really want them to do some kind of reunion episode!
It got me thinking about uni though, and how much I miss it. Not the actual being at uni, partying, having no money (although that hasn’t actually changed) part of it - but actually doing something that I was interested in. Learning about something and not being completely bored by it. I was discussing what I did my English dissertation on the other day with a friend and I still got majorly excited about the whole thing. It makes me sad that I don’t have that any more. Everything just seems like effort - particularly when clients are involved as no one ever knows what they want, but are so easy to criticise when your best guess is not exactly right.
I think the fact that people seems to be progressing around me is probably making this worse. With one friend getting a new job, one moving away on an awesome promotion and one being exactly where she wants to be - it just makes my self-reflection even more harsh. Even though I’m stupidly happy for them all, they all really deserve good things!
It depresses me the more I read about society and how it’s all going to hell. What with the budget announcements yesterday as well, and some very unpopular decisions. I know that the public services are striking today. I sort of support them - I mean I kind of have to, my mother is one of them - but I don’t see it actually helping. Maybe I’m just too much of a pessimist, but it seems this government have made up their minds about how they’re going to run the country into the ground (ie. in a very conservative, rich stay rich kind of way) and I don’t think striking will help - it didn’t help the students. If something does come out of it, then that’s fantastic, and people are actually being listened to, but if not then (particularly within education) they are kind of damaging themselves more, as days with no teaching means less time to get students to course-passing levels. Let’s just hope it works.
LONDON, UK TUMBLRS
James (Jimbob) Thomas is a well-liked member of the UK skeptic community whose family are worried as he hasn’t been seen since this time last night. his work called his family today as his bike was left in their carpark, but he never showed up. there’s been no report of him at a local hospital.
he was at Bright Club London last night, and was last seen leaving the Hoop & Toy pub, South Kensington, around midnight.
he’s known to suffer from depression and has no reason to be missing.
please reblog if you or some of your followers are in London? James isn’t a friend of my own, but some people I know and respect are worried sick.
please contact @PaulLichfield on twitter if you might know anything.
So much for the afterglow…
So after 3 sleepless nights I finally gave in a took sleeping pills last night, and I think they actually worked - either that or I was so exhausted that my body just gave in and let me sleep.
I’m not even really sure why I haven’t been sleeping. My brain has always had a problem shutting down at night - that’s why the Uni life suited me so well - wake up early afternoon, go to bed around 3am. I’ve had messed up sleep patterns since I can remember, it’s just not very practical in the the real world.
I’ve also found myself getting stupidly angry about things that I start thinking about, and then I can’t stop thinking about them and it makes me even more angry. Mostly family and money issues. Sometimes i just wish I could say all the things in my head to the people they concern, but I know how it would turn out, and I’d probably only end up feeling worse. It’s difficult never being able to voice a lot of stuff in my head though.
Monday Again?!
How does this keep happening? I’m voting for some kind of ban on Mondays or weekend extension or something - and I don’t even have to go to work. I was reading that Monday is the most hated/moaned about day…unsurprising really.
Sooo, over the weekend I mostly did nothing. Got a bit further on FFXII, man that game is annoyingly difficult and long-winded. I also managed to sell my ipod touch to one of those recycling sites for about £85 which wasn’t too bad as they seem to go on ebay for about £50 (never mind that I paid like £300 for it in 2008).
I’ve also been trying to decide whether I want to buy an iPad 2. I’ve never been a huge lover of Apple. In fact, I’ve only ever owned 3 apple devices - one being an old-school iPod (a present from my brother) which I still have and use, one being an old macbook which I bought for my 3rd year computer science project and then sold a couple of months later (for more than I bought it for!!) and the 3rd being the iPod touch I have just parted company with. I mostly disagree with the company ethics and the amount that they justify charging for their products whilst purposefully making each one obsolete within a year by bringing out the new-and-improved version. And therein lies my dilemma.
At the moment, TCW are selling iPad 2’s for £250 + £25pm for 3G data plan. The boy and I are considering splitting it, as we’d both be using it (he for games and I for work) which would make things relatively affordable. However, I’m now reading rumours that the iPad 3 may be launching early 2012. So now I’m not sure what to do - the iPad three will be massively over-priced to begin with, but has features that would be far more useful (such as an SD card slot). Any help would be greatly appreciated!
Is there ANYTHING more annoying that somebody whistling incessantly outside your window?
I’m forcing myself to at least write something here. I’m not sure why but I feel like it’s something that I should do, its just difficult when nothing of interest really happens in your life, and you don’t feel like expressing any kind of deep opinions on-line.
I’m finally starting to get some decent amounts of money in for work I’ve done, so that’s looking up, although I can’t really go out and spend it as I ave to consider the fact that there may be a month where I make nothing and have to support myself on previous payment - kind of frustrating and a little worrying with Christmas coming up. It’s kind of depressing when I can’t foresee a time when money wont be an issue.
To make matters worse my car was broken into on Friday afternoon (yes, afternoon - in broad daylight). They didn’t take anything really but they smashed the drivers window leaving me car-less until it’s fixed. Lucky my brother can get staff rates on Peugeot parts.
Relationship things are still all good, just signed the renewal on our lease for 12 months, so yay!
Not a huge amount else to say, other than I’m intending to actually take part in NaNoWriMo this year, as I have an idea that I’ve been wanting to play with for a while and never had an excuse to actually do anything about it. Hopefully work wont get too crazy and stop me from having the time.
Base By: Jahrenesis
